Q&A

This blog has two components.
The first is about Q&A - Queer and Alternative. I really liked Thursday nights at a bar called Barry. It was awesome. The music matched what I was into. I could be a punk/skater and totally fit in, although I didn't have a problem with being different either. Sadly those nights are over. it's kind of sad to know that a place that was so much fun has gone. RIP Q&A.


I guess the crux of this blog relates to a different Q&A. The way we question ourselves. What answers we hope to find while diving into the deepest and darkest crevices of our mind.

I seem to be questioning myself lately. But sometimes questions can be mistaken for battles.
I've had a troubled week. Problems have arisen which have needed my attention. To deal with these I usually go for a run. There's something about it that allows you to think while not getting too angry, because excess energy is being released as you run.
I was running just the other night. Trying to figure out a pretty big problem which basically involved almost $3000 of my own money. While I was doing it I kept asking myself why I placed my trust in some people. Why did I trust them so quickly? Why didn't I qualify their trust? Then it lead to questions like Why do I always find myself the victim? I wasn't angry as such, but I was hurt, upset, and beginning to feel rebellious. I never questioned myself over why. It's been a mystery for three years, where these mood swings come from.

I guess in the end the answers all point back at me. Despite what has happened to me, despite the way I have been treated by some people, I still try to see the best in people. It has screwed me over before, and now again. I'm not referring to anyone in particular, so if someone is reading this and is worried I'll ask you not to be. I guess I'm someone who gets disappointed easily. I trust people, even though I keep an eye on them when they're suspicious. Without reason to suspect anything I trust people way too much.

The real question then becomes, is that my weakness?

The Prophecy

I'm not sure whether I believe that 'prophets' can effectively and accurately predict the future. I'm pretty much a new age sort of guy, I don't believe in the power of the pyramid. This sort of thing typically makes me roll my eyes.
A prophecy is generally explained as being a statement that tells what will happen. In this regard it could be said to be connected to fate. I don't believe in fate myself because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my own life.

However, the other day I 'prophecised' my Uni results...correctly too might I add. Does this make me a prophet? Was this just random luck or a well educated guess based on my sound knowledge of my educational ability and a knowledge of how my teachers would read my papers?
Whatever you think is irrelevant, as is what I may answer to these questions.
The main point I'm leading to here is that events such as these, although in different contexts, have sparked the curiosity of human society into believing and wanting more.

We see it everywhere, but one important example is that of John Edwards. You know, that guy who had a show on Channel 10 (Seriously) who could communicate with dead people. While not prophecising as such, it takes on the same concept that someone knows something that nobody else can know. A claim to access such information which makes people want more.
You see, like a prophet, John Edwards fills his audience with a sense of false hope. Whether his statements are true or not is something of personal opinion (personally I feel like there is someone out there with brown hair who agrees with me, however if you have Black hair then it could be you, sometimes my visions are blinded of colour).

I don't mean to be rain down on people's parade, but one thing I dislike is when people just follow orders, listen to information and believe it. It is something that has happened all throughout history. A little bit of hope, a little 'prophet' and the lure of a propitious opportunity pertaining to future events suck people in. Those people who really think for themselves have my complete respect. My days of blindly following orders are over. Every order I follow is because I'm making a conscious choice too, without interference of a pseudo exclamation.

I better be off, because my horoscope says I will be hungry after releasing an amount of energy...